many days have i pondered over the fact that what if i had done something differently. was reading some other blogs, and a few of them really shared a light on why those people act a certain way or why they turn out to be messed up. it's easy to judge. it's easy to point. i saw this girl the other day, pissed off at her group for she couldn't take it any more. and i could tell she was holding it in for very long, for she was tearing up and just, letting it all go on her group mates. i didn't know what was the problem, and i don't care. the thing is that, i feel that we should always make a point to see where one came from and why he happens to be 'different' from the rest. some people act so 'differently' or want stuff to be done 'differently' that we think that he's seen too many movies and wants life to go like the movies. people say, it's just a movie after all. but we fail to understand is that movies were inspired by real life events.

today, couldn't complete my sets of training. just felt weird running today. breathing was so, how can i put this, unusual? i pushed on, but my breathing was like so weird. my body could take it. my heart wasn't dying for that moment. but, i just had to give up on the third and final set and walk the walk of shame. sat down and wondered, damn what's going on? i shook it off. not a good day to run, i told someone. yeah, it wasn't a good day. it wasn't a good week as a matter of fact. having to deal with...

holidays start from today. (i have to not really talk about it.) so probably the things occupying my time this 4 weeks would be, work, training, scouts camp (for two days only and yeah, it's going to be one heck of a weird camp) and also erm, nothing much else much really. oh and not to forget, hangover part 2. i can't wait. but heard it didn't get good reviews. i can pretty much understand why but i just hope that i'm not too disappointed cause i left watching that show, eager for way more in the sequel. yeah, and probably hitting the clubs next friday. zirca anyone? and bbq outing on the 18th. so my holidays are pretty much set.

so tomorrow's work. another hard, long, tiring, shitty day, having to deal with customers who don't understand english ("Ma'am, if you don't understand simple english like vouchers are not accepted on public holidays, how do you want me to help you?") and trying to hint to customers that we are not a charity organisation, giving away free food and free smiles just because they are hungry and needy. one for one deals now on. that's going to be more headache. i wish i had a little more money in the bank balance for me to enjoy but, have to save up for a rainy day, like if next week i have to buy more drinks, i have to have that extra change in my pocket. dammit, my credit this month is like 100 bucks more than previous months. shit. financially screwed. and talking about finance, i hope i can get tutored well for my financing module's mid-session test.

yeah, i'm still having a pretty off week. and i guess that at work, i'm going to inevitably be a little down in the dumps and put on a pissed off face everywhere i go, giving the customers and possibly the kitchen staff the finger right to their face. or i could slap the wuss out of me and get a life.

people say i'm emo. emo is short for being emotional. unfortunately, i'm empty inside. how can i be emo?